Fri, 18 Aug 2006 01:49:33 GMT

Your Life Crisis: Depression

Emotions
When was the last time you cried?: I cried a little today. I was watching the season finale of The Real World, haha.
Are you a very emotional person?: Yeah kinda.
Do you ever feel left out? When?: I don't know. Sometimes I guess. Like when my friends go out and do something and don't call me and ask if I wanna go.
Are you an introvert or somewhat outgoing?: I'm pretty outgoing.
Do you ever have short/quick, angry outbreaks?: Ugh, yes.
Do you hate anyone? Who and why?: Yes. I'm really uncomfortable talking about it.
How useful do you feel to others?: There are a few people that I know need me.
Do you think you're depressed? Why?: I was diagnosed last October, but I think I've grown up and gotten myself somewhat together since then.

Crisis
Are you ever been picked on (adult or child)? By who and why?: Who hasn't ever been picked on?
Do you ever avoid mirrors because you were disgusted with your image?: Sometimes.
Has anyone close to you died recently?: Nope.
Do you believe that your childhood was a good one?: No, not at all.
Do you ever feel left out or get ditched by friends?: Sometimes.
How many good friends do you have?: Enough.
How many enemies do you have?: I'm sure I'm on a couple of hitlists at the moment.
Are you single?: Yeah.
Do you want to find love?: I really do.
Are your parents divorced, or are there any odd family arrangements?: My parents were never married. They were together for about sixteen years, but they were never married. They've been separated for over a year now.
Are you labeled in a specific clique?: Yeah, I'm usually called a 'punk' even though I'm not at all punk. Punks could kick my ass somethin' fierce. It's basically just because of the music I listen to. Where I live, there aren't many people who have heard of most of the bands I listen to, besides my friends.

Pain & Suffering
Is there a loaded gun in your house? Do you have access to it?: No, my dad took them when he moved out.
Have you ever inflicted pain on yourself? How?: Yeah, I was at a really bad place in my life for about three years.
How many personal ways of dieing have you ever thought about?: I don't know. Just the normal stuff. I've thought about guns and razors and pills.
Do you ever feel angry enough to kill somebody?: No. I'm not sure I could ever want to kill somebody. I've been so angry I've wanted people to die, but I've never wanted to do it myself.
Do you ever feel guilty about miniscule things you've commited?: I don't know.
Do you ever really intend to end your life?: Uh, not really. I almost did one time. It was.. bad.
Do you dream at night? If so, what about?: Lately they've been really odd & random. Mainly because I'm starting my sleep medication again, since school is starting next week.

And ect...
Do you ever starve yourself?: No.
Are you bi-polar?: Sometimes I'm not sure.
Do you like gore?: No.
Are your actions usually misconstrued by others?: Uhh, maybe.
Do you write poetry? Are you any good?: Yeah. And I've been told I'm good, but I'm not sure.
Do you draw morbid things quickly?: I can't draw.
What are you afraid of most?: Being left alone.
Do you feel hopeless (about anything)?: I don't know.
Is your life repetitive?: No. It just always seems to be changing for the worst.
Do people around you irritate you?: Most of the time.
Have you ever cried in public for no reason at all?: Not in public.
Do you take any medications? What?: Yeah. I'm on sleep medication because it's impossible for me to fall asleep at night. And then.. well there's the stuff that's not prescribed for me, but eh, what are you gonna do?
Why do you wake up in the morning?: Because I have to go to school. Ew.

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